How do i put this delicately....

So iv been diagnosed with Delusions ( although for the record i dont think its delusions, they are real)(of course i would say that) and i realize my delusions only happen when im around others, and they happen so severly ( i become so emotionally wrecked) that i feel suicidal. But when i go home and am by myself i settle down and dont have the urges anymore. What do i do? I go to class everyday, and since there are people all around me you would imagine the pain i go through. what do i do?

EDIT: i can explain what exactly happens around other people but it was just bring mass confusion just know the end result is that i feel so emotionally wrecked that all  ithink about is suicide.

The thing is that i have been seeing a doctor already and tried different medications and yet nothing is working. I have tried the doctor path (5 docs).

Through dealing with my ordeal i have come to the conclusion that my problem is truly one of a kind. Truly. OR that there are people out there like me yet the number is very few.

and although they may have it they dont necessarily know they have it. The reason i know how i have it is because i went through a certain specific set of circumstances that in a way has revealed itself to me. I know this is bizare x 1 million. But believe what im saying and dont try to argue...

What exactly happens when other people are around?

Normally, the doctor giving you your diagnosis would then immediately segue into answering the "what do I do" question.

pfft. big deal. everyone is delusional.

you literally don't even see a fraction of the truth of the world around you.

http://www.spring.org.uk/2007/10/how-and-why-we-lie-to-ourselves.php

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/29/opinion/29iht-edwang.1.14069662.html?_r=2&

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2008/10/19/fighting-cognitive-dissonance-the-lies-we-tell-ourselves/

so you are slightly more delusional than those around you, big deal.

stop being a b*tch and act right.

problem solved.

pfft. big deal. everyone is delusional.

you literally don't even see a fraction of the truth of the world around you.

http://www.spring.org.uk/2007/10/how-and-why-we-lie-to-ourselves.php

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/29/opinion/29iht-edwang.1.14069662.html?_r=2&

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2008/10/19/fighting-cognitive-dissonance-the-lies-we-tell-ourselves/

so you are slightly more delusional than those around you, big deal.

Riverwolf007

stop being a b*tch and act right.

problem solved.

Nengo_Flow

[QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"]

stop being a b*tch and act right.

problem solved.

dragonmaster64

The first thing you need to do is: be 100% honest with your doctor.

I have Bi-Polar disorder, when Im not on my meds, I think the T.V. is talking to me and making fun of me or telling me to save the president.

So if your doctor asks you something and you lie (you want to be normal, everyone does) you will not get the help you need.

Stop thinking and just go through the motions. When you leave home, put on your theater face.

Socializing is largely an act...balancing the personal with the interpersonal and trying not to go too far in either direction.

There's a reason the word Family has the root 'familiar' : you aren't being yourself in public, you're representing yourself. Most people don't behave in public as they do at home, and that's a good thing.

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"]

stop being a b*tch and act right.

problem solved.

Nengo_Flow

I guess all you can do is go to therapy and talk to someone regularly about what your going through.  I used to have severe anxiety up until the age of about 20.  I'm 24 now and never have anxiety anymore.  Just try to be happy and find yourself I suppose. Don't overthink everything.

Normally, the doctor giving you your diagnosis would then immediately segue into answering the "what do I do" question.

Oleg_Huzwog

How about going to a clinic or something where you' ll be under close surveillance at all times?

Also have you ever thought that you might be overreacting in an attempt to feel "different" or sth?

You always come to OT for medical advice, brah?

The first thing you need to do is: be 100% honest with your doctor.

 

I have Bi-Polar disorder, when Im not on my meds, I think the T.V. is talking to me and making fun of me or telling me to save the president.

So if your doctor asks you something and you lie (you want to be normal, everyone does) you will not get the help you need.

 

 

TheHighWind

Stop thinking and just go through the motions. When you leave home, put on your theater face.

Socializing is largely an act...balancing the personal with the interpersonal and trying not to go too far in either direction.

There's a reason the word Family has the root 'familiar' : you aren't being yourself in public, you're representing yourself. Most people don't behave in public as they do at home, and that's a good thing.

 

br0kenrabbit

 

Through dealing with my ordeal i have come to the conclusion that my problem is truly one of a kind. Truly. dragonmaster64

It's not.

OR that there are people out there like me yet the number is very few.

drangonmaster64

This is more likely.

More people than you'd think likely experience some sort of delusion, but at a level that's much less severe than yourself (assuming what you're saying is accurate).

How about going to a clinic or something where you' ll be under close surveillance at all times?

Also have you ever thought that you might be overreacting in an attempt to feel "different" or sth?

johnd13

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] 

Through dealing with my ordeal i have come to the conclusion that my problem is truly one of a kind. Truly. Niff_T

It's not.

OR that there are people out there like me yet the number is very few.

drangonmaster64

This is more likely.

More people than you'd think likely experience some sort of delusion, but at a level that's much less severe than yourself (assuming what you're saying is accurate).

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"] and neither would anyone care. You probably jsut watch too much Naruto and think you have sharingan powersNengo_Flow

Blacks should stop being black.

The mentally ill should stop being ill. 

It really isn't as simple as that.

[QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"][QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] lol you have naruto in your avatar too loool but if your not gonna help then leave.toast_burner

Blacks should stop being black.

The mentally ill should stop being ill. 

It really isn't as simple as that.

[QUOTE="toast_burner"]

[QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"] I'll give you a very helpful tip, that will come in handy (and i know im sounding mean, but im serious this time): no one has to help you, and no one has to understand you either. You are who you are... its all up to you. Maybe there is no help, maybe you just cant be around other people. There isnt anything anyone can do. dragonmaster64

Blacks should stop being black.

The mentally ill should stop being ill. 

It really isn't as simple as that.

thanks for your input but im not the average joe. i am highly intellectual and i know. i wish it is that simple but as i said i believe this to be a condition never existing before and thats why normal routine advice wont work. this is something unfathomable. but just know i have tried what you asked and a hundred times more.dragonmaster64

No offense, but if you were as 'highly intellectual' as you think you are, I'd expect far better grammar and sentence structure. It isn't just "this is the internet, blah blah blah"...if you were educated to use proper English then that would be your natural way of writing: you would actually have to make an attempt to write poorly.

I'm wondering if you're a narcissist now. You think other people are stupid and you're so bright, so you're always nit-picking other peoples habits to find their imperfections. Yeah, that'd drive just about anyone nuts.

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="toast_burner"]Gays should stop being gay

Blacks should stop being black.

The mentally ill should stop being ill. 

It really isn't as simple as that.

toast_burner

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] thanks for your input but im not the average joe. i am highly intellectual and i know. i wish it is that simple but as i said i believe this to be a condition never existing before and thats why normal routine advice wont work. this is something unfathomable. but just know i have tried what you asked and a hundred times more.br0kenrabbit

No offense, but if you were as 'highly intellectual' as you think you are, I'd expect far better grammar and sentence structure. It isn't just "this is the internet, blah blah blah"...if you were educated to use proper English then that would be your natural way of writing: you would actually have to make an attempt to write poorly.

I'm wondering if you're a narcissist now. You think other people are stupid and you're so bright, so you're always nit-picking other peoples habits to find their imperfections. Yeah, that'd drive just about anyone nuts.

[QUOTE="johnd13"]

How about going to a clinic or something where you' ll be under close surveillance at all times?

Also have you ever thought that you might be overreacting in an attempt to feel "different" or sth?

dragonmaster64

Are you talking about a mental hospital?

The longest you'll be in one is two weeks.

To quote one of my fav movies: "Spy Hard"

You're not crazy, crazy is walking down the street with half a cantleoupe on your head saying: "I am a hamster, I am a hamster."

yes i am somewhat narcisstic but i know when to clearly divide the line. Through what i have been through i can see life through so many different perspectives thats why i am highly intellectual, my greatest asset/gift is that i am great at understanding. Dont write me off just because my gramer is off. There is no correlation. and im rushing and kind of emotional. in the end youll have to take my word for it.dragonmaster64

I've been through a lot of $hit, too. I've been horribly injured, betrayed, lied to, $hit on, spit on, set up, knocked down and left for worse. I'm willing to bet most people have such a story. You just have to take the cards you've been delt and play the best hand you can.

Look, I know what mental issues are: I've been institutionalized twice for 6 months at a time over them. I've been on all kinds of drugs from the man and therapy and everything. I've delt with $hit in my life, and I've learned to deal with the $hit in my life.

People may not agree with the way I deal with matters, but it works for me. I certainly had to stop nit-picking people to bring my anger under control, and that was the first step on a long road.

Someone may not be as smart as you, but they may work twice as hard as you're willing to. Intelligence isn't the only measure of a person.

[QUOTE="br0kenrabbit"]

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] thanks for your input but im not the average joe. i am highly intellectual and i know. i wish it is that simple but as i said i believe this to be a condition never existing before and thats why normal routine advice wont work. this is something unfathomable. but just know i have tried what you asked and a hundred times more.dragonmaster64

No offense, but if you were as 'highly intellectual' as you think you are, I'd expect far better grammar and sentence structure. It isn't just "this is the internet, blah blah blah"...if you were educated to use proper English then that would be your natural way of writing: you would actually have to make an attempt to write poorly.

I'm wondering if you're a narcissist now. You think other people are stupid and you're so bright, so you're always nit-picking other peoples habits to find their imperfections. Yeah, that'd drive just about anyone nuts.

 

 

Someone may not be as smart as you, but they may work twice as hard as you're willing to. Intelligence isn't the only measure of a person.

 

br0kenrabbit

QFT

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"]yes i am somewhat narcisstic but i know when to clearly divide the line. Through what i have been through i can see life through so many different perspectives thats why i am highly intellectual, my greatest asset/gift is that i am great at understanding. Dont write me off just because my gramer is off. There is no correlation. and im rushing and kind of emotional. in the end youll have to take my word for it.br0kenrabbit

I've been through a lot of $hit, too. I've been horribly injured, betrayed, lied to, $hit on, spit on, set up, knocked down and left for worse. I'm willing to bet most people have such a story. You just have to take the cards you've been delt and play the best hand you can.

Look, I know what mental issues are: I've been institutionalized twice for 6 months at a time over them. I've been on all kinds of drugs from the man and therapy and everything. I've delt with $hit in my life, and I've learned to deal with the $hit in my life.

People may not agree with the way I deal with matters, but it works for me. I certainly had to stop nit-picking people to bring my anger under control, and that was the first step on a long road.

Someone may not be as smart as you, but they may work twice as hard as you're willing to. Intelligence isn't the only measure of a person.

[QUOTE="LJS9502_basic"] :lol: You're funny anyway....dragonmaster64

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="LJS9502_basic"] :lol: You're funny anyway....LJS9502_basic

How old are you TC?

How old are you TC?

Niff_T

[QUOTE="LJS9502_basic"]

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] unfortunately my circumstance isnt.dragonmaster64

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="LJS9502_basic"] Then shouldn't you tell your doctor?LJS9502_basic

yes over the long time i realized my problem iv begin to think to no end, iv told my self that you arent the only one suffering. and it was true time and time again. i even heard of that person (with no limbs and he is now traveling the world telling others of his problem) he even managed to get a wife. But for my problem to begin to explain is so unfathomable. I told you my gift was understanding (something i realize is really great and i think its the price of my great curse) and i already understood that people can suffer, but the way i suffer is unfathomable and something i truly cant deal with. in the end you wont be able to comprehend or understand what i go through, even if i explain it to you.dragonmaster64

Your problem probably isn't as unique as you think. Just because it's a big, difficult-to-explain issue doesn't mean it's uncommon.

(pretty much i realized they diagnose this to anyone who tells them anything thats not written in their books and they dont know how to evalutate it)dragonmaster64

No, they don't. Though I'd love to know how you came to this conclusion.

And this has to be a troll thread.

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="toast_burner"]Which isn't true as people have recieved help and gotten better.thegerg

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"](pretty much i realized they diagnose this to anyone who tells them anything thats not written in their books and they dont know how to evalutate it)Niff_T

No, they don't. Though I'd love to know how you came to this conclusion.

And this has to be a troll thread.

"Delusional" is an adjective, not a thing. You can't be medicated for delusional. thegerg

He means delusional disorder.

Edit: TC beat me to it. >_>