Dead Pixel News Review of Ferrari Challenge
There's a problem, though. What you want and what life gives you never quite seem to match up. The more you want something, the farther away it gets. And as it gets more out of reach, the clearer it seems. Its an illusion that can trap you.
Sitting in that small studio apartment, instead of airy and open, it feels empty. Its everything I wanted and nothing that I need. The silence that I thought would be comforting just reminds me that there's nothing here. The view makes me realize that I'd rather be outside than in this box. I wanted a new home and ended up with a new place to sleep.
To entertain myself, I bought Ferrari Challenge for the PS3. It satisfies all my checkpoints for a perfect racing game. Extremely detailed depictions of cars. Tracks pulled from real world locations. Handling that mimics the best of Ferrari's creations. And I'm utterly disappointed. It looks great but lacks flair. It drives great, but there's something missing that leaves me feeling empty after finishing a race. There's no sense of accomplishment when you complete a challenge or gain a new car. I got exactly what I wanted, but I want more.
I look at the woman who I believed was the one that mattered, and I realize that her smile isn't meant for me. I could keep on trying to trick myself into believing that maybe, one day she'll see me in the same way I see her. And maybe one day she will. But not today. Not tomorrow. And as the days add up, it would only be a matter of time before I wouldn't be able to see the smile at all.
There's the problem. You have to see what's there and what's not. You have to understand that life only gives you so much. The rest you have to take from life. You can either despair over what might have been or you can celebrate what is actually there.
I like my apartment. It's a lot better than the hellhole I was living in before. And from what I'm told, this is a major accomplishment. It is. I'm glad I moved here. The view is great.
Ferrari Challenge isn't the greatest racer in the world, but it still manages to put a smile on my face when the AI makes it hard for me to pass, or when I put a custom paint job on any of the 50 different Ferraris I can acquire. Its not Forza 2, but it'll get me through the winter.
She'll probably never feel the same way I do. I guess I knew that from the start. But I saw her smile. I heard her laugh. I made her a little bit happier, if only for a little while. And in the end, that's what I want to do.